To love another person means to feel compassionate towards them,
to "feel" what they feel.
Caring about someone, and what happens to them is also a sign of love.
Sharing a relationship with someone means that you have to be responsible and have to be aware that there will be times when things go wrong.
Loving someone means taking these "wrong" things and trying to fix them.
What are some signs of love? Making sacrifices is one sign of devotion to another person.
When you care about someone, you have to give a little.
It all comes with life. In order to receive something, one must sacrifice other things.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Sarcasm at its finest
Dear Baskins,
Thank you so much for this afternoon delight treat.
I really had a wonderful 10- minutes with you.
It was such as heavy mood this morning but you are there to make me feel better. Thanks for the one-stop-buy crib you have in Al-AIn Center. Easy for me to reach you when I'm in trouble. I know I will taste you again in the next couple of days. Being wrapped in hot crepe of Nuclear bomb is not that easy. I need to cool down. as in COOL.. much COOLLLEERR. or else i will explode.
A nice cold red horse beer and a sit in the corner sounds quite tempting. anyone who can take a treat?
UP next...
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Excruciating jump of emotion
I'm really really pissed off!
naaaasarrr ako sobra na
tama nang pahirap.
How could they say that they are undisputably tired of their work?
where in they're doing nothing?
All they're painstakingly doing is to wait for the salary time to come and have some cheers of good mood then back to world-remorsing emotion after weeks before salary?
All they wanted is that PEOPLE should ADJUST on their moodswing/ temperament/ nature/ disposition or whatever-you-want-to-call-it-nakakainis-na.
Eto pa, if they are happy they can do whatever job you want them to do, but see, once they woke up in the wrong side of the bed, you should hide on your mother's pajamas because they will be so furious as tornado if you will give them some WORK as IN JOB to do.
Why is it called work if it they will not do it.
Where is the heart?
I dont know.
In HR you have to have not only your abilities but you have to have your heart doing your job.
If you feel that you dont have THE HEART to do it anymore?
why stay? SO that people will not give you wrong impressions, people will not throw their middle fingers on you because everyone is getting affected in your DETRIMENTAL attitude. It sucks big time you know that?
I know I'm might be saying this because I'm not on their shoes doing that kind of job for about 12 or 13 yrs. But we need them to cooperate. Everyone else is doing their job, everyone is trying to adjust on them. SO please be appreciative atleast.
We are trying to think of solution that might help solve the problem. and again this is another kind of adjustment for them?
hay naku ang sakit na ng ulo ko sa pagpapasensya...
naaaasarrr ako sobra na
tama nang pahirap.
How could they say that they are undisputably tired of their work?
where in they're doing nothing?
All they're painstakingly doing is to wait for the salary time to come and have some cheers of good mood then back to world-remorsing emotion after weeks before salary?
All they wanted is that PEOPLE should ADJUST on their moodswing/ temperament/ nature/ disposition or whatever-you-want-to-call-it-nakakainis-na.
Eto pa, if they are happy they can do whatever job you want them to do, but see, once they woke up in the wrong side of the bed, you should hide on your mother's pajamas because they will be so furious as tornado if you will give them some WORK as IN JOB to do.
Why is it called work if it they will not do it.
Where is the heart?
I dont know.
In HR you have to have not only your abilities but you have to have your heart doing your job.
If you feel that you dont have THE HEART to do it anymore?
why stay? SO that people will not give you wrong impressions, people will not throw their middle fingers on you because everyone is getting affected in your DETRIMENTAL attitude. It sucks big time you know that?
I know I'm might be saying this because I'm not on their shoes doing that kind of job for about 12 or 13 yrs. But we need them to cooperate. Everyone else is doing their job, everyone is trying to adjust on them. SO please be appreciative atleast.
We are trying to think of solution that might help solve the problem. and again this is another kind of adjustment for them?
hay naku ang sakit na ng ulo ko sa pagpapasensya...
Friday, May 09, 2008
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Nighttime
You know those times when you're just lying on your bed with the lights out and everything's quiet? When you can't seem to fall asleep just yet and you end up thinking about things, random things? Well it's not random for me. Every time I find my mind wandering, by some odd way, it always comes back to you. Don't ask me why or how, I wouldn't know too. It just does. I think about all sorts of things about you, too many to list down, too many to remember. But trust in me, I do.
Do want to know something? Sometimes, I play out these situations in my head like those portrayed in those cheesy noontime soaps. You know, drama. Thinking that maybe (hopefully not) it would come true in the future. And I'd imagine the pain of it all and I'd end up crying against my pillow. It's pathetic really, crying over something that's just make-believe. But I can't help it...I can't bear the thought of losing you, even if it's all in my head.
Nighttime is getting harder and harder to face...
Do want to know something? Sometimes, I play out these situations in my head like those portrayed in those cheesy noontime soaps. You know, drama. Thinking that maybe (hopefully not) it would come true in the future. And I'd imagine the pain of it all and I'd end up crying against my pillow. It's pathetic really, crying over something that's just make-believe. But I can't help it...I can't bear the thought of losing you, even if it's all in my head.
Nighttime is getting harder and harder to face...
Friday, May 02, 2008
Things are quite okay now. I don't exactly know why these bad things are happening, but somehow, I've seen good things coming... soon. Had spoken to my mom earlier, she said that granny will understand my reason why I didn’t pay them a visit when I had chance to. My silent prayers will always be sent thru the air, and I know for sure that she’s with the lord right now watching us somehow like she use to do.
My dad is working abroad since 2nd grade, during his absence, my mom’s relatives especially the elderly were the one who looked after us. If not because of them I’m sure my mom couldn’t make it alone. Mom can’t be a mother and a father at the same time for her 3 growing ladies. But there they are. Grandparents were there to look after us. They were the one who brought us up. They are very close to my heart, as in very close. That is why I felt like I was crucified and shot thru the heart when i heard that we are One root lesser.
I had a dream last night that somehow made me realize that everything would be okay. That everything would turn out the way I see them, one way or another. My life will be back to old boring phase, but surely i will not forget how blessed I am to have a family like mine.
My dad is working abroad since 2nd grade, during his absence, my mom’s relatives especially the elderly were the one who looked after us. If not because of them I’m sure my mom couldn’t make it alone. Mom can’t be a mother and a father at the same time for her 3 growing ladies. But there they are. Grandparents were there to look after us. They were the one who brought us up. They are very close to my heart, as in very close. That is why I felt like I was crucified and shot thru the heart when i heard that we are One root lesser.
I had a dream last night that somehow made me realize that everything would be okay. That everything would turn out the way I see them, one way or another. My life will be back to old boring phase, but surely i will not forget how blessed I am to have a family like mine.
Thursday, May 01, 2008
Boredom makes you daydream
When I got home from work today, I didn't know what else to do so I ended up reading the write-ups/testimonials my college friends gave me from the years passed. Those were the cheesy information and err, whatever you call it. It hasn't been long since I read the stuff inside my testimonials but when I read it again today It felt like ages ago when I last hanged out with the classmates/ barkadas I had for four years. In almost every write-up, you can read about me being close with everyone and doing the ocho-ocho anytime, anywhere. LOL! we even had this group called The Hamburger Band hahaha. In there also, we were brave enough to talk about our secrets and other stuffs, we were like little kids roaming around the university. and every single day we go to our favorite hang out in CUBAO. thanks to ALBERTO's band rehearsal studio, Grabe, we were really very close to each other we didn't mind sharing things to one another and stuffs like that. Before, every day there was a huge homework central in FEU Pavillion, especially in Physics. we were mad crammers. And we were good at it. And before, I danced in the classroom all the time and they don't even mind. (I think if I dance now, they're gonna bury me alive.)
And now I realized that for the 4 years I've been in hiatus without them, I think I already forgot how much fun we had. Or at least how much I enjoyed having them around. To all my former classmates/ friends, I miss you all too much. I feel sad somehow when I see you all in friendster, making their own lives, setting their own foot ahead, without each other, forgetting our nice times together.
But I'm happy also to see how we settled and grew up from were we part ways. Each has there own lives now, I had mine now, but still hoping that one day, Ill see all of you again.
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Thanks to my pet, Don't leave me bored again. It makes me realize how depressing life could get.
And now I realized that for the 4 years I've been in hiatus without them, I think I already forgot how much fun we had. Or at least how much I enjoyed having them around. To all my former classmates/ friends, I miss you all too much. I feel sad somehow when I see you all in friendster, making their own lives, setting their own foot ahead, without each other, forgetting our nice times together.
But I'm happy also to see how we settled and grew up from were we part ways. Each has there own lives now, I had mine now, but still hoping that one day, Ill see all of you again.
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Thanks to my pet, Don't leave me bored again. It makes me realize how depressing life could get.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
I'm fat!! as in fat not phat...
Well it's official. I am a fat cow. I've always been on the pudgy side, but I've never been fat. I saw some recent photos of me, and yeah! I am FAT. Time to pull my head out of my ass and get into shape. I know it's not going to be easy, but I am going to do it.
They say you should lose about 1lb a week. That’s fine with me. Starting on May 1st, 2008 I am going to start exercising again, and eating as right as my budget can afford.
By mid year I should be less.
Granted I can't join a gym so I have to do it the old fasioned way. I'll start getting up at 6am, and exercising for an hour, take a shower and get to work on time.
I'm going to research the best ways to exercise with out paying for a gym, and figure out my own menu of food, and work from there.
Why 1st May you say. I can get a good pair of running shoes.
On May 1st you'll see an entry for my current weight, and my meal plan for the week, and then once a week I will post my progress and how well I stuck with my menu.
ARRG I am not looking forward to this, but I cannot be a fat cow anymore.
Damn I hate pictures.
God I hate pictures.
Well it's official. I am a fat cow. I've always been on the pudgy side, but I've never been fat. I saw some recent photos of me, and yeah! I am FAT. Time to pull my head out of my ass and get into shape. I know it's not going to be easy, but I am going to do it.
They say you should lose about 1lb a week. That’s fine with me. Starting on May 1st, 2008 I am going to start exercising again, and eating as right as my budget can afford.
By mid year I should be less.
Granted I can't join a gym so I have to do it the old fasioned way. I'll start getting up at 6am, and exercising for an hour, take a shower and get to work on time.
I'm going to research the best ways to exercise with out paying for a gym, and figure out my own menu of food, and work from there.
Why 1st May you say. I can get a good pair of running shoes.
On May 1st you'll see an entry for my current weight, and my meal plan for the week, and then once a week I will post my progress and how well I stuck with my menu.
ARRG I am not looking forward to this, but I cannot be a fat cow anymore.
Damn I hate pictures.
God I hate pictures.
Sunday, April 06, 2008
Best things in life are FREE
1. Thanks for offering to help. :D I want to take care of it myself, and I'll have the money. Baby You're great.
2. I had a 2 day off!!! We went to Jumeirah beach park last weekend and it was so nice to get away for awhile, even if its just for a few hours.
3. I am almost caught up with my officework the whole week. I have a big assignment due on Sunday and another big assignment due on Wednesday and I haven't even read the damn books for my distant learning its supposed to be about. haha. Oh well. I know I'll get it done, since I don't have to go to work during the weekends. Weee!
4. I'm so excited to have 2 days off. I wanna go to somewhere else, away from Dubai. I have some plans middle of this year but i wont tell anybody yet. Thought of it palang, naeexcite na ako. shet.
5. Im starting to love my job. Ayokong isipin na dahil hindi na ako expose sa Early childhood chenes hindi ko na siya gusto. or maybe bounded lang ako sa current job ko kaya yung Im just too busy to think about it. anyway im very much thankful of what I have. thank you lord
6. and most of all, back to each others arms. I just realized that being with you is my happiness. sorry for being such an ass. I have gain weight and my appetite has come back already. lagi kasing walang gana when you'renot there. iloveyou pala. hahaha adik
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I think one of the best thing that ever happen to me in Dubai is having to meet this good fellow roommates turned into best friends. Have spent 50 percent most of my stay in UAE are well spent with them.
Iloveyou guys! I may not be as vocal as I can be but see... Im very proud of all of you. Pameelengs!
2. I had a 2 day off!!! We went to Jumeirah beach park last weekend and it was so nice to get away for awhile, even if its just for a few hours.
3. I am almost caught up with my officework the whole week. I have a big assignment due on Sunday and another big assignment due on Wednesday and I haven't even read the damn books for my distant learning its supposed to be about. haha. Oh well. I know I'll get it done, since I don't have to go to work during the weekends. Weee!
4. I'm so excited to have 2 days off. I wanna go to somewhere else, away from Dubai. I have some plans middle of this year but i wont tell anybody yet. Thought of it palang, naeexcite na ako. shet.
5. Im starting to love my job. Ayokong isipin na dahil hindi na ako expose sa Early childhood chenes hindi ko na siya gusto. or maybe bounded lang ako sa current job ko kaya yung Im just too busy to think about it. anyway im very much thankful of what I have. thank you lord
6. and most of all, back to each others arms. I just realized that being with you is my happiness. sorry for being such an ass. I have gain weight and my appetite has come back already. lagi kasing walang gana when you'renot there. iloveyou pala. hahaha adik
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I think one of the best thing that ever happen to me in Dubai is having to meet this good fellow roommates turned into best friends. Have spent 50 percent most of my stay in UAE are well spent with them.
Iloveyou guys! I may not be as vocal as I can be but see... Im very proud of all of you. Pameelengs!
Friday, March 28, 2008
Effects of Anorexia
effects of anorexia
A year ago, i would have described myself as a positive, enthusiastic person who could cope with just about anything. but there I was sitting in a taxi, crying uncontrollably because the driver didnt understand where i wanted to go. its been a stressful office week i told myself. its a one -off! but a couple of days later i found myself having a tantrum in Spinneys- virtually throwing things because the line were taking so long.
I burst out, eyes brimming with tears. not just a one -off then.
and certainly not a normal reaction to a five minute delay. those tears became a regular part of that week, in the morning at work. and then panic attacks started. imagine waking up and remembering you have the most important exam of your life that day. cramming. there are some days I had to leave the office and go for a walk around the block because i felt i couldn't breathe and if i dont walk im ready to get off anyone's head. just feeling my face on heat everytime someone mess with me.
food doesn't seem to be palatable for me no matter how colorful or good it smells. i didnt feel the hunger at all.
Ironically, my life is close to perfection as it had never been. family problems manageable, i'd got my dram job, i was with the man i wanted to be with forever and living and working overseas which i'd always loved doing. it didn't make sense. and everyone around me seemed to be having such a fantastic time. what was wrong with me?
i'm a psychology graduate and no need to scan my DSM IV just to know why am i going through these. i know there is problem but too denial to accept it?
recently im confused/ i dont know, i just feel left out. i feel that i'm begging for attention that no one seems to notice. i feel sorry for myself. i pity myself because i know i dont deserve it to be. i should not be crying over him.
they told me i'm getting heavier this time.
insult huh. thinking im not eating anything.
i feel so low. this is not just another melancholia.
this is chronic. and no one can help me but myself only.
paula gamitin mo nga pagka psych grad mo!
adik. hay
A year ago, i would have described myself as a positive, enthusiastic person who could cope with just about anything. but there I was sitting in a taxi, crying uncontrollably because the driver didnt understand where i wanted to go. its been a stressful office week i told myself. its a one -off! but a couple of days later i found myself having a tantrum in Spinneys- virtually throwing things because the line were taking so long.
I burst out, eyes brimming with tears. not just a one -off then.
and certainly not a normal reaction to a five minute delay. those tears became a regular part of that week, in the morning at work. and then panic attacks started. imagine waking up and remembering you have the most important exam of your life that day. cramming. there are some days I had to leave the office and go for a walk around the block because i felt i couldn't breathe and if i dont walk im ready to get off anyone's head. just feeling my face on heat everytime someone mess with me.
food doesn't seem to be palatable for me no matter how colorful or good it smells. i didnt feel the hunger at all.
Ironically, my life is close to perfection as it had never been. family problems manageable, i'd got my dram job, i was with the man i wanted to be with forever and living and working overseas which i'd always loved doing. it didn't make sense. and everyone around me seemed to be having such a fantastic time. what was wrong with me?
i'm a psychology graduate and no need to scan my DSM IV just to know why am i going through these. i know there is problem but too denial to accept it?
recently im confused/ i dont know, i just feel left out. i feel that i'm begging for attention that no one seems to notice. i feel sorry for myself. i pity myself because i know i dont deserve it to be. i should not be crying over him.
they told me i'm getting heavier this time.
insult huh. thinking im not eating anything.
i feel so low. this is not just another melancholia.
this is chronic. and no one can help me but myself only.
paula gamitin mo nga pagka psych grad mo!
adik. hay
Monday, March 10, 2008
first day
Napakalungkot ko ngayong araw na ito.
Ayaw ko lang sigurong aminin.
Pagising ko palang sa umaga, parang may kulang na.
Hindi lang tulog...
dahil alam ko sa sarili may kulang talaga.
Tinignan ko yung celfone ko walang miscol, walang text.
Received call- 10 March 2008, 03:53:05 am
yan na ang huling pag uusap namin mula ngayon.
kailangan kong maghintay ng isang buwan para lang magkaroon ako ng tawag mula sa kanya.
matagal tagal rin yun.
mukhang sa mga susunod na umaga, ganito pa rin ang mararamdaman ko.
ang hirap.
Ayaw ko lang sigurong aminin.
Pagising ko palang sa umaga, parang may kulang na.
Hindi lang tulog...
dahil alam ko sa sarili may kulang talaga.
Tinignan ko yung celfone ko walang miscol, walang text.
Received call- 10 March 2008, 03:53:05 am
yan na ang huling pag uusap namin mula ngayon.
kailangan kong maghintay ng isang buwan para lang magkaroon ako ng tawag mula sa kanya.
matagal tagal rin yun.
mukhang sa mga susunod na umaga, ganito pa rin ang mararamdaman ko.
ang hirap.
Thursday, February 21, 2008
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