I was hurt as much as I was happy as much as I loved. And I dont need the rivermaya pin, cd and others stuffs back. It will just remind me of so much pain that was/is you. Something you dont understand and will never do. Throw it away. I dont want it. I want you out, totally.

I used to remember my own dying moment, I thought of my friend, kaaway and you the whole picture of you. I still love you and I hate it. I want to say it out loud for the last time because you cant. Because you DONT. I love you and Ill say it because I can. Because as much as I try (God knows how hard) you still haunt me. You still make me cry and im crying now. Again. Im pretty sure you didnt cry for me.

My bilins still stand. I know how little of worth I am/was to you. Maybe I hate you because I still love you. And thats my problem. Have a good life. Hanggat may thursday maaalala kita. Hanggat nakakakain ako ng monggo at donut, hanggat may nueva ecija, hanggat siguro nabubuhay ako maaalala kita. GANON KITA MINAHAL. Sana di ka magtaka kung bakit ganito ako nasasaktan at nagalit. It only equates to how much I loved you, and how much you NEVER loved me. Pathetic no? I dunno neil, I refuse to cry anymore but you still make me. I get fresh wounds everytime I hear about you, add that to the healing and healed wounds that get sore too, everytime I remember you. Ganon pa rin kasakit. Baka ganon pa rin ako nagmamahal. Di ako nahihiyang aminin sa yo yun dahil alam kong walang saysay ang pagmamahal ko sa yo. At di rin ako nahihiya dahil yun ang totoo.

I wish you were even half as brave as I am. I hope this wont happen to you or her, ever. I am sorry I annoys you. I am sorry I love you. I am so sorry for feeling too much. I am so sorry. Goodbye. Goodbye. I miss you. -->

so the fever is not yet over. you can hear emiratis screaming to the fullest and making theirselves noticed on the streets. The football spirit is present in everyone as people carried UAE flags, decorated their cars and even painted their faces and clothes green, white, red and black.

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anyway, For two days straight, im very unlucky to be caught in 3 hours traffic in Dubai because of this exhilaration but fortunate enough to come home with my arms, feet and my whole body parts together. Traveling in the city is not very easy especially when you come across those rude emirati drivers. SIGA at feeling sa kanila ang kalsada. as if you're in a roller coaster. I always say "parang nasa isang hukay ang paa ko pag bumabiyahe ako." =D