I woke up with a headache because my father actually shook me awake. Days like these when I just want to rest makes me want to bite people's head off. kulang kasi ako sa tulog. tapos pagod pa.

we had some walk with my ate the other night at the mall. (after i had my interview) btw, the mall is our get-away place everytime we need some air to breathe in. kaya lang, ramadan na starting this day so, medyo we'll be having some rest for a month. medyo wala kaming mapupuntahan ni ate. sad.

and then last night, we just walked along the beach. for the first time i saw a CAMEL. parang bata ako. sayang i dont have a camera. pero lagi naman kami dun ni ate, kaya lang everytime we go there, walang camel sightings. kagabi lang. next time, magdadala na kami.

BETTER LATE THAN NEVER







my dearest sister KAHLA sent me the August edition of PINOY MAG featuring Jappy and DOk SErgio. haay, ive been dreaming about this magazine for so many weeks now and finally, umabot na sa akin.

Marami akong nalaman at marami na namang naglalaro sa isip ko ngayon.

* i can be a slave for someone i love. shete. i can do the laundry for HIM (basta may washing machine). para hindi na sha pupunta sa laundry shop. i can do it for FREE. or di kaya, pag balik ko ng pinas, hahanapin ko yung laundry shop at mag aaply ako as laundro-girl. pathetic noh.

*i can cook. ADOBO is my specialty. ill teach you how to. if you like... hehehe

* pwede rin akong PULOT bola pag nagbasketbol kayo sa tapat ng haws niyo.

* sana nakilala na kita noon pa nung may BIKE pa kami. para may kasaby ka mag-bike or iaangakas kita or ako mag aangkas sayo. hahahaha

*JAPS STATED: "pero ako ngayon iba na, kapag my tumingin sa akin ng 2 or 3 sec, malamang kialla ko yun so papansinin ko na siya agad at magha-HI nalang ako".---- hmmm. nakita kita sa ATC fews months ago. pero sana kahit sa sobrang kaba ko lumapit ako. ang layo ko kasi nung tinitigan kita eh. sayang ang MOMENT. syang ang HI mo.

*DOK SAYS: "confident naman ako na kung ano man ang heart matters ni japs, kayang kaya niyang i-handle yun"--- basta pag hindi mo na kaya, i can be your shoulder to cry on.naks. AS IF.

* "pareho kaming single ni DOK, shoking ba yun?"- JAPS
"ako single, ewan ko siya"- DOK answers, pointing to JAPS
-- OHMIGOD! sana nga single (pa rin) siya. =D

*i want to sneak in your room while you're taking a bath, since lagi mo naman iniiwang bukas ang bathroom door mo eh. beware! hahahaha

*favorite Q&A on that interview:
Whose career-musical or otherwise would you most want to emulate and why?
DOK: "my brother JAPS, he's a brilliant songwriter, a great performer and a good leader".

Why? obvious ba?
Reminder: Dont get me wrong. hindi naman ako stalker or obsessed fan-girl-rock-chic-groupie (whatever!). im just a SELF-CONFESSED ONE-SIDED LOVER na simpleng kasiyahan na ang malunod sa kwento tungkol sa kanya. dun lang masaya na ako. KAHIT DI NIYA ALAM..

One moment may with bliss repay unnumbered hours of pain-
THOMAS CAMPBELL


may bago na akong friend, isang BOOMBOX!
hindi nga lang siya gumagalaw pero nag sasalita at kumakanta; nag-eexist sha para sa akin.

ang babaw ng kasiyahan ko noh?
kahit pa isa lang ang English FM station dito. malaking tulong yun sa akin.
Salamat sa nagbigay.
salamat oohh boombox!

Y'ALLAH!

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i was a couch potato freak the whole day yesterday, thanks to hours spent in front of my new boombox! trying to be relaxed. so when i was told my presence was required in the club at 1030pm, i was ecstatic. by the time we left the flat, i was ready to commit murder and ready to bite-off anyone in sight.

in the club: we drank, we laughed , we danced, we laughed and laughed. namintas. astig.

though kahit malaki ang pinagkaiba sa manila. i enjoyed for the moment.

now, balik ulit sa dati.

i hada short conversation with my friend R about dun sa kapitbahay/ kababata niyang FRONTMAN ng isang bandang kinarir ko last year.

R: nagkita pla kami ni ?. kahapon. wala atang gig, galing skul.
ako: ah? talaga? buhay p? so kamusta naman siya? at ang banda?
R: ok naman, tinanong nga kita eh
A: nyeh, naalala pa ba ako nun, ano sbi?
R: cnbi ko ung pinakilala ko s knya nung bday ni ano.
A:ay sos! parang ayaw ko ng marinig yung sinabi niya...
R: gusto mo ba o ayaw?
A: depende, kinuwneto niya ba yung k-praningan ko nung gig nila sa libis?
R: oo, bruha ka, natawa nga eh, ang kulit mo daw
A: un lang? ano pa sbi?
R: he asked me kung iba na number mo?
R: eh diba hindi na yun 607 ang gamit mo?
R: nagtetext daw sila dun, di ka nagrereply.
A: SILA??? ah oo kaya pla ron ako nagpalit ng number ...
R: sus! kala ko baokey lang sayo si DB? (as in drummer boy)
A: okey lang nga, wala naman akong sinabing hindi okey. pero ako ba okey saknya?
R: labo ka tlga, bruha, eh sino gusto mo? SIYA?
A: naman!
A: lam mo naman kung pano ko sinundan yun
A: malay ko ba naman kasing kapit bahay mo?
R: sinabi ko nasa dubai ka na
R: sayang daw nasa kanya pa yun cap?
A: cap? err, wag mo ng ipaalala kasi sumasama tuloy yung loob ko.
A: ngayon, hinahnap na niya ako pero dati... tsk

HINDI KO NALANG SIYA PAPANGALANAN AT BAKA LUMAKI PA ULO LALO NUN. FEELING NIYA HUMAHABOL PA AKO SA KANYA. tae siya.
bitter bitteran pa tuloy ako ngayon..

Of all the things I hate, it’s being ignored. And above all the things that I hate being ignored by the one you love is shittier than all the f_ck_d up things combined. I am sorry, am I being too bitter with my words. tae kasi.

I am sorry, it’s just that I feel so down lately and instead of moping around which what I’d been doing for the past 2 weeks, I decided to really release my anger in some form or another.

I cry every night, I cry because I feel im being used. I cry because I feel insecure, I cry because my face hurt from smiling and most of all I cry because I feel empty.

If in your course of understanding, friendship and concern, you’ve felt one care for me please do this for me. give me a nice message.

Just one...
so tonight I can sleep.

jollibee and friendships...

---since i left pinas. i miss my friends, especially AYN, CON and KATE. my constant companion during skyflakes times, lunchee/ dinner, and support times in jollibee's castle. guess, all the conversations we had, shallow or deep it maybe, really created a friendship that despite long silence, is still there. sila yun mga taong free from pressure, free from assumed criticsms.

let's just say that these days, ive been wanting some friends to joke around with, to share stupid stories, to text and just share a smile with. i havent found one here yet. but i hope makahanp rin ako. kahit ibang lahi, as long as tao at maiiintindihan ang mga trip ko sa buhay.

for now, we communicate through occassional YM, but i do hope that the friendship will still remain.

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grogginess and laziness

now im quite energized. not to the fullest, but at least i have recharged a bit.

the coffee, yogurt and monay did wonders to my mood, along with some chika about baywalk bodies'life. like tis so important?! hhehehe, oh well, as much as most people hate to actually talk about actors and actresses' life when they don't even know we exist, its always been a part of filipino life. so, embrace it nalang.


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nga pala ive read it here na STEVE IRWIN is dead already. its ironic that he didnt die of crocodile hunting noh?