we must remember that christmas is all about CHRIST's COMING...

so, whatever the situation we're in, we should try to awaken the glow of our saviours birth...


ITS CHRISTMAS!

BE HAPPY.

BE THANKFUL!



MALIGAYANG PASKO SA LAHAT!









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hmmm..
masaya nga pala ako ngayon.
salamat at may taong nagpasaya sa akin.
kahit sandali lang. thankful ako kasi i experienced to love again.
merry christmas talaga 'to!

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ito ang dalawang messages sa akin ng mga matalik kong kaibigan na si JAZ at JAY nung birthday ko. Gusto ko lang i-share kasi sa tuwing binabasa ko 'to ng paulit ulit nabibigyan ako lalo ng pag asa. napakaswerte ko sa kaibigan at hindi nila ako nakakalimutan. SALAMAT SALAMAT! hindi ko alam kung kelan ako makakapagsalamat ng personal. ummm. utang ko muna ang kape! =D makakabawi rin ako.


from JAZ's blog:

(post para sa akin at kay RONS)

i wish i could tell you not to get depressed anymore. that, hey cheer up, there are still better things in life to be glad about. kaso i've also been there and somehow i know the feeling. mahirap ang pakiramdam ng walang katiyakan ang lahat. mahirap maging malungkot dahil feeling mo walang nangyayari sa buhay mo.

for about a year and a half i felt like i was a tennis ball hurled back and forth across the net. i was riding in a roller coaster set of emotions. it's draining and yes, it's really depressing to the point that sometimes you feel like giving up and forgetting the whole thing. i moped, i pitied myself, i felt overly pathetic. kaso isang araw parang naramdaman ko na nalang na, well ganon talaga. it's one of the reasons why you're here on earth for. to experience not just the beautiful things in life but also the ugly ones kaya it's either you do something about it or you just let it control you. sabi nga ni jessica zafra, "Nothing is more depressing than getting depressed without putting up a fight." kaya sige laban lang tayo. ganyan lang talaga. lilipas din yan. siguro hindi pa ngayon, hindi mamaya, baka bukas o sa isang taon pa. pero sana habang andon tayo laban lang.

sana pede kong sabihin na stop being depressed kaso ayoko kasi naisip ko sa isang banda maganda na rin yung makaranas tayo ng ganyan para kahit papano natututo tayo sa buhay natin. depression made me miserable but at the same time it did me some good. in some ways marami akong natutunan sa sarili ko. at dahil don nagpapasalamat ako.

would i dare go back to it if the situation pushes me to? hell no. hanggang kaya ko pipilitin kong hindi na kahit pa di rin yan maiiwasan dahil lang tao ako. siguro the point is, enjoy lang. may mga pagkakataon na magandang byahe ang nasasakyan natin, may mga araw ding bad trip pero siguro ang mahalaga ay kung anong ginawa natin habang nasa byahe tayo.

masaya parin ang buhay kahit ocassionally may sayad ang mundo.

my prayers for both of you. kapit lang tayo mga kaibigan. :)


from JAY: (medyo edited nga lang. may mga binura lang akong ibang linya.. hehehe)

SUBJECT: nandito lang ako

point by point:-

i never gave up. i delayed myself. and i'm heaads up for the reason why...

- kung ano ang wala sa iyo, hindi mo pa yun kailangan sa ngayon. gamitin mo ng maigi at mabuti ang kung ano ang meron ka. at alam mo kung anu-ano ang mga yun..

-wag mong isipin yung mga 'bakit' dahil yung mga tanong na yon ay laging may sagot. Hindi nga lang agad-agad... At magiging malinaw rin lahat IN DUE TIME. Mag- ingat ka rather sa 'paano'. Kasi yun either you know it or you don't. And it's up to you if you will know it or not.

-the person who never took the chance never had a chance.-excite yourself. do something noone expects you to do. not even you. i left my pride for a better daily life..

-your family cannot be compeled to do otherwise. that's why like i said during the last line, i decided to leave the house by next year.. i already looking for housemates na kilala ko..

-hindi malalaman kung ano yung mga mali kung matatakot kang magkamali. get there and if you're there, call for me (us).

we should talk. personally. tell me when. kahit sunduin kita sa haus nyo. (engeng sketch, if ever, hehe)

insomniac.
natatakot ako.
kaya hindi ako makatulog.
natatakot maulit muli ang walang pagbabagong araw ngayon,
pero kailangan ko pa ring ipikit ang mga mata ko aat mapanaginipan ang dapat sana ay mangyayari na sa buhay ko. kahit sandali lang. mahirap pero pipilitin ko, makalimutan lang ang sakit na dulot ng REALIDAD na MAKAKASAMA ko HABAMBUHAY

suzette, ivan, ME, jonald, jemai, darlene and shine- taken November 2, 05

my younger sister KAHLA, me, and my ATE BLAUNCH- taken the night before my bday

And now, im 22.

I woke up 6 am.
I waited for the sun to come out, then muni muni ng sandali. I thought about everything that had happened in the past 21 yrs. Of my so-called life. Merong malungkot, may masaya at nakakahiya. Naalala ko rin yung personal struggle na pinagdaanan ko 3 wks ago. It was kinda long compared sa mga previous melancholia ko. Akala ko nga hindi na ako makakarecover. Now, im filling out the spaces I missed. Kelangan kong bumawi sa mga nalampasan ko at mga nakalimutan ko.

Kaya nagsimba ako around 7am. I thanked the lord for all the blessing he has given me. Kahit minsan talagang feeling ko di ko na kinakaya at kadalasan kinukuwestiyon ko na siya. Ilang beses na ako bumitaw sa kanya pero I still find myself coming back to him. At siya, nadyan pa rin. Sumusubok. He just want me to realized and learned something…

Yahweh, thank you so much!


Hmmm. Right after the mass, MR DRUMMER boy was waiting for me outside the church. Treated me out for BRUNCH (hell, yeah, baliktad ang mundo) and had some nice talk. Although very limited lang yung time kasi alam kong pagod na siya at wala pang tulog galling gig. But he drove all the way from south. *sweet* he is such a nice person and I really appreciate such kindness. (That’s another story…)


Anyway, I went back home.
I got all those touching text messages from friends. Ang daming nakaalala kahit yung mga dating hindi nagpaparamdam. They made me feel important. Sana lagi ko nalang bday. Yahoo!

Tapos nag dinner naman kami nila AYN at ODETTE sa MARIO’s kitchen sa rob place. (the best ang sisig dito, try niyo!) LIBRE ULIT.

Nakakahiya na nga sa kanila. I didn’t spend even a single centavo, kahit ako pa naman yung celebrant. I told about it kasi nagseSELF-PITY na naman ako. Wala man lang kasi ako maishare sa kanila. Pero she told me na I dont have to feel that way and they want me to feel better and happy. Siguro this past few days ramdam nila yung bigat ng loob ko na tinatago ko. Hay kelan ba ako makakabayad sa dalawang ‘to. Ang hava na siguro ng utang ko at natatakot akong baka hindi ko na mabayaran. Hindi ko tuloy napigilang umiyak.

Nevertheless. Tagumpay sila at nabuo yung araw ko.

Imagine, I celebrated my birthday with some of the special people in my life. LUCKY ME.

Bago matapos ang gabi. Isang text mula ulit kay DB:

“you are so fortunate at 22 ka na. you should be thankful for that. Naging mabait ka kaya it pays kaya maraming nagmamahal sayo. Sana tuloy mo lang yan. Kahit daming hassle ang buhay, nandito naman ako, este kami. Mag iingat ka kagi.”- 23:36 Nov.13, 2005


salamat sa mga bumati. I really appreciate it. Ilabyouol. alam niyo na kung sino kayo.

i was once told by a friend na DONT give up searching for my life.
eh pano ano gagawin mo kung isang taong alam mong malakas ang loob at nagpapalakas ng loob mo dahil pareho kayo ng situtaion eh nag give up na lang and he just let the wind blows over his feet and gave up his independence. shet di ba.

PEOPLE change ika nga pero pano kung sarili mo minsan hindi mo maramdaman ng may nagbabago? "tatangapin nalang ba ang malupit na tadhana? o kayay tatanggapin nalang ba na sawi at di pinagpala"-- oo KANTA yan at tulad ng kanta na yan, sinasalamin niya ang nararamadaman ko.

potah,
madaling magbigay ng salita sa iba na KAYA mo yan pero sa totoo lang sa loob ko, napakahirap nun lalo na kung gusto mo talagang mag give up nalng at hayaan nalang ang IBANG TAO ang mag manipulate at magmaneho ng buhay ko.

sa totoo lang naiiyak na ako kung bakit patuloy kong pinagkakaiit sa sarili ko yung PAG ASA.
simula MAY 3 beses na akong nagresign.(prudential, aboitiz, mcu ) lingid sa kaalaman LALO ng ng mga KAIBIGAN ko. hindi ko sinsabi kasi alam kong isa lang ang madidinig ko: "BAKIT?".

at hanggang ngayon 3 na rin ang trabahong tinanggihan ko.
"bakit?" napakalaking tanong. kung BAKIT kasi yan nalang ang laging tinatanong, hindi ba pwedeng mauna muna yung tanong na "ANO... ano ang balak mo?"

madalas kong sinasabi ang problema ko sa mga BOY-frends ko kasi alam ko, (fixated na yata ako sa sasabihin ng mga babaeng katulad ko-- at ang katagang KAYA MO YAN, ANO KA BA? )sinasabi lang nila yun kasi wla sila sa lugar ko. at least kahit papano pag boy, mura ang inaabot ko. KATOTOHAN. kaya pasintabi sa iba kung sa iba niyo pa nalalaman ang problema ko.

nagalit may YUNG iba diya sa akin sa pagiging selfish ko. i think time naman na maging madamot ako sa oras, sa pramdam.

gusto ko muling maexcite.

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naiinis ako sa daddy ko, sa mommy ko, sa mga kapatid ko...
kung bakit napakabait nila sa akin kasi hindi man lang nila tinatanong kung ano nararamadaman ko.

kung bakit mataas ang expectation sa akin samantalang hindi naman ako panaganay, na sa sobrang taas, wla akong napapala. na naaawa ako sa sarili ko kasi wla akong magawa, na inuunahan ako ng takot dahil ayaw kong PUMALYA. na feeling ko sa kahit anong lakas ng sigaw ko hindi ako madidinig.

napatuloy akong naghahanap at kung may nahanap, i turned it down because of that fear i feel.

i was about to leave last sept 23 for china.
hindi nila alam yun. hindi ko pinaalam.
placement nalang ang kulang, GO na dapat ako.
sept 14 na deadline, hindi ko pa rin sinasabi, hanggang sa naBLACKLIST na ako sa agency na yun.

hanggang ngayon, hindi ko alam yung gagawin ko. hindi ko alam kung may mangyayari sa akin o kung may mangyayari pa sa buhay ko.

pinili ko ngang hindi sabihin kahit sinong kaibigan ko, kasi ang balak ko mag teleport nalang ng wlang nakakaalam. para magugulat nalang yung iba.

ang masasabi ko lang "do not trust this hope, it has forsaken this land".

i dont need your WHY's i just need the word IM HERE.

napapagod na ako..




sabi nga ni jaz...
the mind is tired.
the heart is tired.
the spirit is wandering.
the soul is restlessly stirring.

last night was HALE's listers night. hmm..
yeaah i was there because of my dearest friend TRISHA.

im a CERTIFIED groupie. ulkkk.
i hate myself.
pero masaya ako kagabi.
nakita ko si chino, yung brother ni champ na nasa video nilang KAHIT PA.

i joined trish because of him not becasue of hale. hahaha

then tumugtog yung band na SANDO. nameet ko rin sila after the set kasi nilapitan namin sila. at dahil mababait sila, naenganyo ako bumili ng indie album nila. =D

medyo, sabog ang tenga ko ngayon dahil sa sobrang enthusiasm ng mga taong nagpunta dun kagabi. (90% na puro teen girls ang nandun). i dunno kung nandun ba sila for hale's music or they just wanted to see HALE. hmm. madaming magagalit sa akin nito. oh well. sorry.

trouble and fix you by coldplay and screaming infidelities ng dashboard C. were included in their covers song last night. tapos kulang nalang bigyan ng stretcher yung mga nandun at parang hihimatayin na.

buti nalang at wlang napahamak. hahaha!

Congrats to my dearest alma mater for winning the 68th season of UAAP. Another thing to be proud of about this school. Kahit I always received nega remarks from other people. Atleast I can say that I came from a school who thought me how TO BE SPORTS and HUMBLE inspite of being branded as JOLOGS at mahirap.

I think there is no need to be bitter about since archers did a very great job this season. I salute these players who really gave their best. Honestly, im always been a fan of YEO and ARAÑA. Kung pwede ko lang nga sila ipirata at palipatin sa PIYU ginawa ko na.

Sana lang walang personalan at tanggapin nalang na ganun talaga ang laban. I should not say this pero apparently, 2 of my friends (who doesn’t know each other and who belongs from the archers) texted me this same kind of message:

“ This loss should serve as a humbling experience to the archers and to the DLSU community as well. Being CHAMPION doesn’t mean YOU”RE on the TOP FOREVER. For the FEU tamaraws, our outmost congratulations”

“next year is the end of your TRIUMPH, no more SANTOS, ISIP and RIZADA. Whats next? We don’t know… for now, enjoy!”

“pinagbigyan lang naming kayo since may nagawa kaming kasalanan which wwwe asked for forgiveness already. We’ll bring back the TITLE NEXT YEAR”

hmm.. whats the point?
Useless diba?
Di naman sila halatang bitter niyan at parehong message lang ang pinapaikot nila sa lahat ng katext nila.

I deeply appreciate your greetings guys, but next time don’t act so BITTER huh. NAKAKABADING na eh! And don’t act like as if kayo na ang pumalit na JOLOGS AT MAHIRAP.

Everything’s behind me now and lets just put an end here. PERIOD!

BITCHeNESS ko lately…

Situation number 1:

Si “kuya oldie” grounder nakita ko sa isang concert with her girlfriend. We rarely see each other and we were both happy na nakita naming ang isat isa that day. Kahit hindi kami ganun close. Lumapit siya and lend his hand to me. Pinakilala rin niya yung PANGET niyang GF (hindi sa pagpintas at hindi dahil hindi siya nagging mabait sa akin, pero panget talaga). I politely smile and extend my hand kahit ang sama ng tingin niya sa akin na kulang nalang sakmalin ako at halos maputol ang kamay ko sa pagod dahil hindi niya ito inabot. FINE! Atleast ginawa ko ang dapat pero when I bid kuya oldie goodbye, I made IRAP rin to that pasosyal girl while making BESO to her boyfriend. HAHAHA, bahala silang mag away. Yung gf naman niya nauna eh. (patulan ko ba?)

Situation number 2:

I was on the last part of a nerve-wrecking interview. I thought im good not until the interviewer asked me…

MADAM AURING Look-alike interviewer: okey, so wha do you think of REGINE VELASQUEZ?

AKO: (sa loob loob ko, BAKIT? Anong tanong yun? Related ba yun? Icebreaker ba ito? Anong isasagot ko? I have to be honest..)
* umm.. we all know her, she is freakin regine velasquez. (o.oohhh, bakit ko nasabi yun? Patay, durog ako?! Nawala ako sa sarili ko? Bakit kasi tumatak sa isip ko yun eh?).
She is a great singer and an actress for most people but she doesn’t have originality. Her songs are purely REVIVALS. She can only sings but doesn’t have the talent for writing. (tuloy tuloy na naumpisahan ko na eh, wala ng bawian!)

Lagot ! halos magdikit na yung tattoo niyang kilay, so I stopped staring at her and looked around the room. Shet, dun ko lang nakita yung mga picture ni regine na naksabit sa wall ng buong kwarto.

LAST WORDS KO? Wala na! gusto ko ng lumubog sa kahihiyan, dahil di ko alam kung ano kaugnayan niya kay regine! Alam kong poker faced na ako nung mga minutong yun. At feeling ko rin yun na ang pinaka mahabang sandali ng buhay ko. Gusto ko na agad mag reincarnate sa hiya.

LAST WORDS NIYA: since the very first part of the interview, you’ve been very honest and I admire you for that. But I think you are so HONEST to be part of our company. I’m very sorry. Thank you and goodbye.

….am a psychology graduate. I was trained to have a good judgment. But I think my training wasn’t good enough. =(

Situation number 3:

my friend has a obsessed suitor, he told her that he will kill himself if she will never be his GF. So I asked my friend to tell that crazy man to go and kill his self. I think she or even other people don’t have something to do with his paranoia. Its his choice, konsensya niya yun. At kamay nya mismo mag eexecute ng krimen sa sarili niya. I think those who really intend to kill themselves don’t announce it to the world. The one who do just need sympathy or want to catch the attention of their loved ones =D.

Everyone is talking about Pinoy Big Brother. I honestly confess that I watch it everyday. Becoz I want to fill in my time and there is no other choice pag nasa bahay ako =D DEFENSIVE ME! Okey… yeah im watching it not to be entertain and to enjoy every freaking moment of it but becoz im expecting and hoping that as day goes by somehow Philippine TV would offer me something that has aesthetic value o kahit anong values. It is really disappointing for me to found out nothing and to fool myself na WALA NA NAMAN TALAGANG PAG ASA eh!

Ang BIG BRO. sa ibang bansa e hit talaga. Mas exciting. Walang bawal, walang limitation. Kahit pakikipagdu “do” captured on camera. Unlike PBB, sa FIL-CULTURE? Sa isang konserbatibong bansa na lahat bawal. so wats so exciting on that? Yun bang pagsasayaw ng naka swimsuit? Senseless conversation? Ang pag experiment sa papel bilang sigarilyo? (ginawa yun ng isang hawsmate) just to pamper his mouth?

PBB is another distressing mimicry on local tv. But then IMITATION from foreign shows is a big part of phil. History.

Ang nakakatuwa lang siguro sa akin ngayon ay yun kulang nalang ihagis ako palabas ng mga sisters ko dahil sa mga side comments ko while watching with them. I am such a bitch. Buwisit. Pakialamera.

Pag tapos ng unang season ng palabas na ito sigurado ako may paglalagyan ang bawat isa sa kanila sa telebisyon. Let’s wait and see.

matutulog muling bantulot
kung gigising pang walang puot
loob na may nanunuot
na sugat na walang saplot

MTV PILIPINAS 2005

maganda yung concept this year, BOXING.
tado and ramon bautista were so funny.

panoodin niyo. it will be shown late september!

last night was so great. RIVERMAYA <ang banda ng bayan> bagged 2 major awards. BEST SONG and BEST GROUP for the song BALISONG.

kudos!

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congrats rin sa RADIO ACTIVE SAGO project. mahal na mahal ko yung video nilang ASTRO. fortunately, they won the best VIDEO and best DIRECTOR categories.

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(kahit inidian mo ako, masaya pa rin ako! kala mo!)

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next time na ang buong kwento,
mauulan kasi,
may SUDDEN MOOD DISORDER na naman ako.

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im sick =(

REST IN PEACE WOLFMANN
Hindi man talaga ako ganun ka FAN o nakakarelate sa music niya pero nakakalungkot lang ang biglaang paglisan ng isang music HERO. nakulangan na naman ng magagaling na nilalang sa MUNDO NG MUSIKA.

my friendster FAYEgrounder (of CYBELLE's ROBE) posted this and KATHY MENESES of DAYDREAM CYCLE also confirmed the news.


Hi guys,

Kramer - Thank you for the kind words. We hardly get to see
eachother nga pero I'm happy that you were able to witness such awonderful
event.

I, unfortunately, am posting because of a tragic and terrible
event.My friend and peer in the business, Wilfrid Hernandez, aka WOLFMANN,has
passed away..

He was also at Rockestra, and joined the impromtu celebration
at 3rdFloor along Katipunan. We were all so happy that Rockestra was a
successful and fun venture.

I arrived there around 12 MN (yata). Wilfrid arrived about
10minutes after. He made me beso and sat down at the table next tomine. About
15-20 minutes after that, all I saw was Vin (TwistedHalo), Buddy (Twisted Halo
and Cambio) and Zack helping him out ofhis chair and down the stairs. Diego
(Sandwich and The Bitter Pill)was also helping in the move.

They rushed him to the nearest (and safest) hospital, QCMC,
wherethey tried desparately to revive him. We were all there, waiting andpraying
for him.He was moved to St. Luke's at around 3 AM, Saturday, where he lay,in a
coma.

I went to St. Luke's with Chill, also a member of this list,
ataround 2 PM where I received word that Wilfrid was practically braindead with
the heart the only thing functioning.At around 3 PM today, I received news that
his blood pressure dropped to a dangerous point. 30 minutes later, Vin had
texted thathe passed away.Wilfrid was one of the key people who helped me
organize the veryfirst EB.

Since then, he has been such a wonderful and dear friend.He
was so happy when I saw him after Rockestra, and when he arrivedat 3rd
Floor.

Please pray with us - his friends and myself. His family and
friendsare in a great deal of pain - this was very quick and
veryunexpected.

Wilfrid.. I miss you.

Blessed be,

Trish

LETS pray for his soul

RIVERMAYA GIG: CANCELLED

Ang excitement ko nauwi sa INIS.

ang pagdayo ko sa SM North kahapon ay hindi biro.

maulan. mahangin. trapik.

confirmed daw kaya ako nagpunta.

tapos nung nandun na ako sa venue...

CANCELLED pala.

may sakit daw si KUYA RICO

ayos.

sabi pa naman ng mommy ko sa sm tayuman nalang daw ako magpunta at malapit lang..

mahirap daw bumiyahe.

nandun naman daw ang HALE.

hindi pwede dahil ang tagal ko ng absent sa gig ng MAYA.

yun pala sila ang absent.

ouch!

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My dad and I had a very big fight over the fone last week. That was the very first time i spoke up. i never really have the tongue to argue with my dad (even to anybody...) regarding THAT matter kahit pa noon.. He started the fire so i got pissed off. I was forced to tell him everything i never intended to. Thank god shortly after, he realized something and he texted me back apologizing.

I did too. SORRY rin. A million SORRY. If only i could shout it over and over again just to prove na hindi ko sinasadya.

Much have been said but i told him how much i appreciate every sacrifice he's doing for us..
and how much i LOVE him...
How much i love our FAMILY (if thats how they wanted to call it)..

=(

two at a time

emo...

paalam o kay tamis na kataga

na bumuhay at nagbigay ng sigla

sa loob kong dukha

na di pinagpala

pipiltin na makabangon

sa pagkakatulog kahapon

mahirapan man sa pag iyak

haharapin ng pusong wasak

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matutulog ako ngayong masama ang loob

sa labis na pagdurusa ng damdaming

mula sumikat ang araw ay puro hinanakit ang kasama.

sana sa pagtilaok ng manok

hatid nito'y baong pag asa

TUMATAKBO- "MOJOFLY

laging bigo

laging sawi sa pag-ibig

may balat nga ba ako sa pwet?

mabuti pa ang tindera sa aming kanto

nakakainggit

tl..ang sweet nila ng kanyang nobyo

gusto ko lang maranasang umibig

tamaan ni kupidogusto ko lang maranasan ang langit

tumibok muli ang puso ko

CHORUS:

Tumatakbo ang oras naiiwan na akong panahon

Di na nagbago bawat araw

pare-pareho parang kahapon

May birthday cake ka nga

ngunit wala namang kandila

may christmas tree na malupet

wala naman dekorasyong pansabit

sadyang ganyan ang aking buhay

walang kasing tamlay

ayoko sanang tumandang nag-iisa

(chorus)

tatanggapin na lang baang malupit na tadhana

o kaya'y tatanggapin na lang na ako'y sadyang hindi pinagpala

tigilan na ang drama

punasan na ang luha

*wala na sigurong ibang kantang makakapag-describe sa nararamdaman ko ngayon kung hindi yang kanta na yan. sawing sawi at tagos tagusan. LSS ko yan kahit nananaginip ako sa tanghali.

*what would u do if somebody close to your heart tell you this "BURAHIN MO NA AKO SA FONE MO, BUBURAHIN NA KITA!" ... alam kong mababaw sa iba pero sa akin , mahirap tanaggapin ang mga salitang yan. potah, gagawin niyo ba yung sinabi niya? ano mararamdaman mo? suicide bang matatawag pag gagawin ko nga ang kalimutan siya kahit half of me is telling me not to? is it okey if i still cry for the NTH time?

i had such a great time listening to the album of this girl. my cooling effect siya sa akin na hindi ko maintindihan.
i love the way she sound. try niyo rin =D

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para naman maup-lift yung outlook nga mga lolang katulad ko ito naman ang must have.

yeahboy!!

BITTER OCAMPO

BITTER OCAMPO

im craving for a close human contact for GOD SAKE.. im trying not to be like this but insecurities keeps on hunting me... look parang everybody around already have their cuddling partners, while me? eto, creating my own music without someone to share with. FUCK, ang sakit di ba? i dont want to feel this way, but unfortunately, ang tulad ko ay hindi EXEMPTED.

• si AYN KRISSY found her JAMES YAP and thats KUYA DAN.
• MAMA bear NET and PAPA bear YAS are undeniably getting stronger everyday.
• morCON and AMBOY... five years and still counting...
• Supervisor ODETTE (?), a ministop owner suitor, a blah, and blah, another blah and the list goes on..
• DANICS, happily married.
• EVELYN a former nun-turned-bitch meron na rin.
• JOY dumating na yung pinagnovena niya. kahit daw BINGI pero binigay rin ni lord kahit may kapansanan.
• bestest friend DIANA very much happy with mr. SMART manager..
• ako? PAULA BIANCA FAJARDO A... 21 y/o, unemployed, single bastard and on her way to DESPERATION.

hindi ako BITTER. hindi nga ako BITTER. sinabi ng hindi ako BITTER..

im just an innocent bystander when ever i watched you play.

kill me now or ill go nuts and not be able to conceive people like him.

ilabhimpramis...

SM MALLS

WATER REFILLING STATION, para ring REYES HAIR CUTTERS at VIDEO CITY. kung medyo mataas na level of comparison and rampantness... JOLLIBEE o AMA COMPUTER LEARNING CENTER sa bawat lugar. ang bilang ng mga itoy hinahabol na rin ata ng SM MALLS. kung hindi ako nagkakamali meron ng 12 branches yan dito palang sa metro manila.

• *SM sta cruz- isa sa pinaka una at pinaka ayaw ko sa lahat ng dahil ang fanget ng hitsura at niluma na ng panahon. parang kademo-demolish na saa kalumaan at kasikipan. tuloy pag pumapasok ako dun hindi ako makahinga. (actually ginagawa ko siyang daanan patungong quiapo church.)
• SM harrison..
• SM manila- ang paborits naming puntahan nila mader.
• SM cubao- mas class ng konti to kesa sa SM sta.cruz dahila laging nirerenovate.
• SM sucat- malaaki ang supermarket section kaya astig dito mag grocery.

• SM las pinas- una at huli kong punta dito nung promotion ng TULOY ANG LIGAYA album ng paborito kong banda... RIVERMAYA.. so thats 2-3 years ago i think..
• SM coastal road- ????
• SM mega AB mall- ang pinaka abnormal sa lahat ng SM pero pinaka trip kong puntahan. hindi ko na mabilang kung ilang beses na akong nagtungo dito pero naeengot pa rin ako... ehehehe
• SM bicutan
• SM north edsa- nung college ko lang nalamman na SM WEST rin pala ang tawag dito. (sabi ng ilang ginagaw na pala yung building 3 nito
• SM makati- daanan ng mga galing glorietta patungong MRT AYALA STATION
• SM sta.mesa-???
• SM farview- from the name itself. far siya sa akin kaya hindi ko pa napupuntahan.
• SM tayuman- ang pinaka latest addition sa SM MALLS at pinaka accessible to sa akin.

.. ayon sa tsismis, ginagawa na rin yung magiging main branch at pinaka sa lahat ng SM. it will be located along Macapagal Road. na tatawaging SM ASIA. (ang alam ko yung place na yun yung dating dagat ng manila bay na tinambakan-- e di malabot pa rin yung ilalaim nun? ganun rin yung ginawa sa navotas at malabon di ba? kaya kahit hindi umuulan eh lumulubog pa rin ito sa baha. at bumaba ang kalidad ng lupa every year ng 1cm?)- medyo O.T.

anyway, tapos may panibagong planong SM na gagawin sa may caloocan kaya malamang kung matutloy yun ang kaibigan kong si diana at ang familia niya eh mawawalan na ng bahay at lupa dahil tuluyan ng bibilin at papalayasin na sila kasama pa ang 2, 000 pamilya sa lugar.

bakit parang gustong gusto ng mga SY bawat lugar magkaroon ng branch ang shoemart? oo ngat maraming trabahong mabubuksan pero san naman nila balak irelocate ang mga taong mawawalan ng bahay at kabuhayan?