i considered everyday of my life is in doldrums. yes, i may sound so nega here but thats the way i see it. infairness i would end up concluding that those loneliness im getting would help me up to seek my own happiness. (thank god im taking my way back to sanity.. again!) labo ba? malabo talaga ako. most of my emotions i poured into my past journals can be summed up in one BIG word: SADNESS- and my response to that? HAPPINESS siyempre. how? i always try to find time for my self. i watch gigs, listen to music, rearranger my blog, text and call unlimitedly. my source of happiness is still myself for you info. most of the time kahit feeling ko walang nakakaintindi sa akin, pinipilit kong maging okey. no one undertstand me unless they've been to my situation. sometimes i feel so helpless. tapos minsan pag nandun na ako sa point na yun, nagakkataon na no one is available. no one is there to listen, to answer my fucking sentiments in text. kaya nga i learned to suppressed all of my pain.
how i wish from chronic depression sana hindi maging heart attack ang aabutin ko nito.
haay wag naman..
life goes on...
move on move on paula.
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